heh. slacking mahh.
December 30, 2006 | 8:34 AM
曲：K歌之王 – 陳奕迅
eason chan's concert. ahh. ahhhh. want to go. but then, no one in this world has heard of him lah. why not? he has one of the most sincere voices ive heard. next to jordan chan lah, but his songs very sad ah.
been putting off blogging. again. heh. but suddenly felt like it, so here i am. just home after being out the whole day, school for mmr meeting, then prata house for lunch, and back to the hotel to wait for berry.
havent been out with berry for a long loong while; missed her
wuliao-ness all this while. she was planning to get a new phone, so we went down to bugis, got it, and spent the rest of the night looking for a suitable pouch and strap to fit its
chioness, according to her. haha. saturday hotel was busy as usual, so i didnt really have the time to stay and crap with william or ricky or sharon they all.
cameron photos i dont want to ask andre le, wait for him to start feeling guilty first. he wont budge until i start becoming pissed, i tell you. hor andre. >_< hahas. as for our christmas party at his house tt day, woah.. not bad! it was fun, and im glad everyone can ngam with everyone. heh. =) pictures can be found in yt's
multply acct. i have been updating
hy.multiply's music as well ah, so can look at it from time to time. ^^ thank you everyone for the presents too! omg i didnt expect you all to get tt designer's guild makeup pouch at all. and dre and qi,
this diary will change your life 2007!? really, at a loss for words. i love all the presents. hugs.
あの日の凝視、意味あるのかな。分かんないですね，あんたの行動とかって。なんかいっぱい話があるだけど、全然あたしに話さないって感じ。ユジンさんもちょっと変でしたよね。でも、私本当に何も考えたくないんだ。いつも現実と大間違いですから。もう失望とかしたくない。ね。
velda.
christmas. two.
December 24, 2006 | 6:56 PM
曲：This Christmas - All-4-One
i know, this isnt a official christmas carol, but it never fails to make me happy. especially the all-4-one version ah. hahas. merry christmas everyone! ^^ the time for love and forgiveness. love it!
back from cameron, i know, quite a while liao, but was putting off blogging because i thought i could post some photos up. but i dont think i will get them anytime soon with andre busy with *ahem* other stuff. so ill post them up when i get the chance. =) we had great fun in cameron; it was cold (the hotel lobby thermometer said 18-19 degrees, but i suspected around 15 at least), and it was wonderful feeling the cold wind in your face. we laughed till we cried, and we discovered a new hobby - foosball! foosball got a lot of strategy one you know. haha! we made so much noise everytime we played that we sort of attracted everyone to play after us.
the trip up and down the highlands was not as great though. i was not prepared for it at all - i totally did not know it will take one hour plus to climb tt mountain in a bus gg at least eighty. it wasnt as bad for genting though, so i thought it would be something like tt. at least genting got cable car come down lahh. wanted to curse with each turn we took, which was probably about like a few hundred. stopover-ed at kl (3rd time in one year, scary right?). was kind of hoping we couldnt return home because of the flood or something. >_<
koping something from huiqi's blog - i thought quite nice. but what you want to say to ppl, perhaps it will be easier to speak up about it. yet sometimes, maybe its not tt easy.
list to 10 ppl, something you've always wanted to say to each, keeping it anonymous:
1. you've become so much more happier now, but remember never to lose that.
2. you might not know about this, but im sorry for ever suspecting and being stupid.
3. only when you're there, do i know there's someone always looking out for me. thank you.
4. perhaps this is when you become an older but wiser person; ill be here.
5. i really dont know who i am to you, but i hope at least you learn to notice the people around you more.
6. i love you, but sometimes you need to let go and let the flow lead you. i think you'll be happier.
7. be careful, im a little worried. you know i care, even though sometimes i get pissed off. >_<
8. i know we've hurt each other, and im sorry. smile always, okay? its what keeps me going.
9. your strength makes me admire you so much. and im always here to talk.
10. we all love you, so you need to learn to appreciate that. ^^
velda.
christmas.
December 16, 2006 | 8:11 PM
曲：Nobody Else - Take That
a song that always hits me in the heart. my mom loved take that, and so she used to play their cds on the weekends when she was cleaing the house. i love the chorus of this song, because it makes me believe that it's true. =) simple lyrics, nothing bombastic, but still it hits you.
the days are rushing by, and we're less than two weeks to the end of the year. next year's going to be packed with exams, trips, projects and japanese classes. it's going to be the year i turn twenty. 2006 has been a year of unbelievable happiness, but also a year of wrenching sadness. it was a year where i learned so much, and learned how to appreciate the people i have around me. 2006 is the year i found out that the extent you could care for someone could scare you, and how much people cared for me. reviving old acquaintances, making new friends. 心痛有多震憾，自己体验过才懂。
christmas service at the m club was inspiring. christmas carols with friends makes it all the more meaningful. reminds me of the annual christmas parties at my aunt's place when i was young, the cousins all gathered around the tree...
yup, perhaps christmas has never hit me the way it hits me this year. i just want to gather friends and family around me, and tell them how much they mean to me. maybe that's why even santa at the club meant so much to me. maybe that's why the smiles from the kids at the visually impaired school touched me. maybe that's why i got so high when i saw the choir enjoying themselves. during the dinner, this girl went up to santa and hugged him really tightly for at least a minute. i was affected, by the faith of the girl.
christmas is a beautiful season, really.
velda.
sports day.
December 14, 2006 | 7:56 PM
曲：千の夜をこえて - Aqua Timez
heard from gawain that it's theme song from bleach the movie; dont watch bleach, but it made me listen to the song again after it's been sitting in the media library for a few weeks. not bad, actually.
our unofficial sports day ended quite well ahs. woke up this morning with aching muscles. havent been exercising so strenously in a long while, hehe. loved playing badminton with azmi, darryn and everyone. and i have decided my favourite sport to play is definitely still table tennis. haha. it's real fun ah, and every good play makee me very satisfied. haha.
the football match between MS year twos and year ones was really fun as well. all respect goes out to clara man. =) so we won 9-2. i loved seeing everyone laughing and cheering and having fun. reyn and shaiful especially, never fails to make us all laugh. but be careful of injuries people.. cramp de cramp, strain de strain.. quite hiong orh. >_<
cameron in a few days. havent packed, but im taking things really slowly now. all i want to do, really, is to leave the stresses and the pressure and the having to worry about the things around me for once. so cameron will help me do that. looking forward to relaxing, long walks and late night conversations. =) so andy, andre and yanting, don't fall asleep on me ah, unless i fall asleep first. haha. tend to retire very early when overseas, dont know why.
projects still accumulating, but we are reaching the end of the semester yet again. 2 years spent in this school alr, i think we have been through a lot. and we're still hanging in there, even after misunderstandings, and tears and anger and everything else. and i wouldnt trade all those memories for anything else.
did i mention that calvin called me a few days back? just that morning i wrote the previous entry on how i was going to call him with him in chicago, and he called at around 1pm when i was in school. got a shock lah, but it was really great hearing his voice, and laughing at stupid thingslike not understanding the new laptop his office provided him. the only problem now is really time difference. when he called at 1pm, it was 11pm the day before for him. ^^"
velda.
some advice.
December 11, 2006 | 6:01 PM
曲：對愛投降 – 張惠妹
william and ah ford both are really sweet people. once they realised i wasnt feeling really good, they immediately asked me what the matter was. sorry william, i botched up your dvd thing over the weekend. ^^" really didnt have the time and energy to settle it.
cnt wait for cameron. im so tired that i do need my lepak break soon. perhaps to just get away from everything, and enjoy the fresh air and the solitude. okay, not really solitude, but relatively speaking lahh.
i miss calvin. need to talk to him ah, but chicago how to call?! i especially love this picture above though. courtyard chefs in action, as usual think they very shuai. haha. from left to right: william, ah ford, ah joe, calvin, chef gary, and the two new guys (ah choong and ah heng i think) >_<
perhaps it's time to step back from the situation and look at what you've been doing all this while. sometimes there are things you dont want to admit to yourself, because it's too painful to think about. but when you've tried, and tried, and still, it doesnt work, perhaps it is time to let go, and figure out how you are going to help yourself heal. don't make the same mistakes. 朋友那么容易放下吗？if it is really like that, then don't tell me i chose the wrong person to befriend. 不要做无谓的坚持了。到最后最重要的，是自己吧。the healing process is not going to be easy, but at least, you won't lose a friendship.
have you said you were sorry? are you? i dont think so.
velda.
andy said not to emo le, actually.
December 8, 2006 | 1:27 AM
曲：晴天 - 周杰倫
just woke up after a loong day out yesterday. shopping trip with jess, siyu and yanting was a blast - and we got really high, actually. we even managed to dress siyu up in taka! woots - that was really quite sexy. lingerie shopping, sitting in the dressing room for at least 45 minutes with its carpeted flooring and sofas - scarf shopping, makeup lessons, shuai ge spotting.. by the time we were waiting for andy to pick us up at yio chu kang we were all seriously high.
beerfest at louis' house last night. havent seen eugene in a while as well, still as lame hor. >_< tired out, a little emo; the night had its hilarious moments though. like andre performing his only one magician can achieve trick.
実は本当に見たくないんだ。実はダメだったんだ。だから、何でそんなにバカですか。すげーバカね、私。もう君の事本当に友達にもうなれない。まだ好きですから。
vance is off to church camp.. havent talked to him for quite a while - as in face to face. recently i realised that perhaps the both of us can talk more to each other, and im glad for that. we are the weirdest pair of siblings there is - everything we can talk about, but NOT relationships. i dont know why, but perhaps our family is like tt. he wouldnt tell me about his past girlfriends and everything, but i can see that the past hurt for him - and thus i do for him as well.
不要这样对我。
velda.
hotel friends.
December 6, 2006 | 10:24 AM
曲：Paint My Love - Michael Learns To Rock
catching up with hotel friends has been long overdue. dinner with audrey, ricky and ah kent today. wah.. im actually quite proud of myself. throughout the whole dinner, i could understand at least 70% of what they were saying in cantonese lahh! even though i cnt speak it, but still.. from zero to understand 70% is quite something wor. learnt a lot about hotel latest news and politics. very fun, because audrey tends to talk about very interesting inside information. woots
ah rain was back from penang, long holidays before the start of her next semester. havent seen her in a long while, so we sort of sat in ah teng's bakery and chatted and chatted. hahas. missed her a lot as well. havent laughed with her for a loong time alr, almost forgot how she looks like when she laughs her head off lah. also saw peter today; havent seen him ever since he moved up to lbsh. =)
ah ford just told me how he misses chef calvin. i do too, really.
why is the asian games highlights at 1.30am? i am desperately trying to keep awake here, and i look up at the clock, only to realise its 22 minutes to the programme. if i trying reading, i'll fall asleep within the minute. urgh..
shopping with jess, siyu and yanting tmr! yays.. and a bobbi brown lesson scheduled as well. really, i think it would be fun. i do need my sleep. and it's 1.30am alr.
velda.
the birthday.
December 3, 2006 | 10:17 AM
曲：I'll Make Love To You - Boyz II Men
im putting aside everything to write this entry, because i dont want to forget anything that happened the past day. =)
the second of december for the past few years have always been full of happiness and sadness all mixed into one. as i grow older, i reflect and realised how much i can change in the space of one year. yet, each year, i feel i would never have really lived if what happened didnt ever happen.
i had a great birthday this year, (with more celebrations to come! >_<) thanks to the bestest people that have ever shared their life with me - andy. andre. yanting. darryn. azmi. huiqi. jessica. ken. love you all, really. in the midst of all the icas we have to hand in, the stresses of school, of stuff outside school, they all managed to find time for me, and gave me a perfect celebration.
i love all your presents - all your dedications, your flowers, everything. and andre, yanting and jessica - i love the scrapbook. really. i am going to treasure it and keep it and read through it everyday.. this is the best present i have ever gotten. thank you for taking all tt time to do this for me.
huiqi, azmi.. you both dont know how much i appreciate and how touched i am with what u both wrote. if i played such a big part in your life, you both have played an even bigger part in mine. you know it. ^^ guys, i really really mean all that i said during our testi (hehe!) session. and thank you for making me feel so loved. and girls, thanks for tearing with me.
i wonder if andre's friend sook ching got shocked by us crybabies. haha. but dre, im glad u brought her along. ^^
i cnt thank all of you enough. hugs.
qi, have i told u how great u are?
oh yah. thank you. 電話することを決めたのは本当にすげー難しい事でしたよね。でも、ありがとう。君からのあの電話は私の一番大切した事です。
velda.
